Watch Closely!

Ok, time to make it official, I really need to make some resolutions clear and aim it to be done by year end. One of which is to pen a script. I always had this loftly ambition to write a brilliant script like Good Will Hunting and be thrust into the world of media and TV. Just to prove that actors don’t need to be dumb; its just a side of myself that many people don’t see. Maybe cause I potray too many jesting/bumbling roles on stage already.

Its kinda my curse to think much more than I should, its also my curse that I’m just afraid to release something thats not perfect or something thats not up to my own expectations.

I guess creative people has their own set of frustrations too, I don’t want to sound proud or holier-than-thou, but I think most creative people operate differently from non-creative people.

They think different, have different motivations, different responses to situations. I guess thats why most celebs in the industry sometimes have feelings of inadequecy or view a fellow performer in a competitive light.

We need a object to project or vent our frustration on, so sometimes its just not fair for some people (especially who don’t understand us) to be that object.

Sorry, its a flaw I’m still trying to correct.

Back to my lofty aspiration, I had a nice talk with Sandy on the cab home from dance class; told her if I could maybe apprentice Chingling as the an understudy scribe for church dramas. Although my storys might not be suited for the church stage, I believe I have sometime to contribute and also learn from her. I do hope she considers me for that though.

Currently I’m working on a few scripts in my own comfortable time, I’m like writing a few words every few weeks. Like JK Rowling for the Harry Potter books, I know what I want to tell to the audience, but the execution must be right. The timing must be right, the words must be right, EVERYTHING must be perfect.

Jaimes needs to put the paper to the pencil rather than the pencil to the paper.