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ARGH!~!~!

I’m not very sure, but I really have to get this off my chest; recently there’s just too many people in my life having hissy fits. And not only hissy fits; hissy fits directed at me!

I’m not talking just about the girls, the males are also no excluded. It just seems that the single slightest irritation will piss you off.

I’m sorry, I really just have to rant, you all really have to lighten up abit more. And don’t take me for a emotional punching bag; yes, I’m here as a friend to hear out your troubles, I’m trying my best to exercise my hearing ear (and believe me, I was much worst than I am now), but you don’t have to direct everything you’re facing to me.

And don’t blame me for being (apparently) cheery all the time; you think I may exude a “happy-go-lucky” attitude, but the truth is I all but that. Like any other normal joe, I do feel depressed, sad and all the other human emotions too, sometimes more than other people do. The thing is that I learned to a certain degree to either suppress this feelings or to control them, especially when its not fair to blast at people who don’t know my situation. I’m not perfect, I’m still a work-in-progress.

The fact that you have a hissy fit is just a sign that you want to share your problem with others unconsciously, but don’t know how to express yourself in the proper way.

Enough with the dissecting with the situation, I’m just sick and tired personally with people treating me as an emotional punching bag. Its just not healthy for my own self-esteem; the worse thing is I have my own problems and I don’t see you ever listening to MY problems, so its quite a unbalanced one-way relationship.

I think I really have to cut down on my transient friends, its not healthy for my spirit, to have a higher expectation for a friend when he/she cannot fulfill it. Its not anybody’s fault, it just means I don’t mean as much to you as you do to me.

Jaimes’ chest feels much lighter.